In this performance, drawn from the personal loss of my family, I delve into themes of memory, loss, and the passage of time, using my body as a canvas to bear the weight of these experiences. The work centers around the physical act of pressing my back against metal letters that protrude from a wall, imprinting the phrase “Losing the Lost” into my skin.

This action is repeated three times, with each imprint gradually fading as time elapses. The diminishing clarity of the marks symbolizes the transient nature of memory and how, over time, even the deepest scars—both physical and emotional—begin to blur and fade. The repeated press against the metal letters reflects the persistence of memory, capturing the tension between holding onto the past and the inevitability of its erosion.

As I stand against the wall, allowing the imprints to fade from my skin, the performance becomes a poignant meditation on the impermanence of our experiences and the relentless passage of time. The fading marks are a metaphor for the psychological scars that remain long after a loss, and the complex process of internalizing and eventually releasing the memories that shape us.

This work invites reflection on the fragility of memory, the nature of loss, and how time gradually erases the traces of what once was. By incorporating my own experiences into this piece, I explore the ways in which the body can bear—and ultimately release—the emotional weight of personal history.